Got it!

I received a phone call this afternoon from the internship that I applied and interviewed for many months ago. They told me that I was accepted. I start Monday August 10th. This is exciting and scary for me at the same time. There is a chance that I will have to drive people around after the training, and most likely it would be in areas I am not familiar with. My internship is in an area I am not familiar with at all. This scares me a bit.

I figure I could try the internship out, give it a chance. I will lose my foodstamps, but if I someday get a job opportunity from this, it would have been worth it.

I enjoyed my family vacation and my birthday as well. I can't believe I am 32 now.

Family Vacation

This weekend I am going to be on a family vacation. My mom, dad, sister and I will be going upstate NY. It's our first family vacation in 9 years. We went in August of 2000 and it was mostly fighting. My sister seems to think it will be fighting this time, but I know I am in a different place than I was in '00. My parents are picking me up at 6 am (yikes!) on Saturday. I have a lot of my stuff together for the trip, but will do my final packing tomorrow.

My birthday is next week, I'll be 32 years old. I got my b-day present early- a digital camera. There is a lot to learn with using it, and most of what I need to learn is on my computer. It came with a very basic user guide and then a more detailed one on the cd. I've printed out a few pages of some of the key features I'll be using. I've hardly ever taken pictures throughout my life so far, so it will probably take some getting used to.

Recent post

I deleted my most recent post. I feel like sometimes when I write this blog, my mind takes a negative turn. I don't want to do that anymore.

I will write more when I am in a better frame of mind.

NYC bound

My parents treat me a whole lot better these days. My mother recently found a poem I wrote dedicated to her and she told me the reason she did not hang it up was because she felt like she didn't deserve it. She said she knows things were bad. This is the first acknowledgment I have gotten from her regarding our problematic past. I didn't continue the subject, because I think she genuinely feels bad and I didn't want to make her feel any worse. Despite everything that happened, I love her and would like to have a better mother/daughter relationship now that I am all grown up and out of their house.

I am going into NYC this week to visit my aunt. She is going to take me shopping for a birthday present, as my birthday is this month. I am going to get a manicure/pedicure and we are going to go out to dinner. After dinner, we are going to go on a cruise that will take us by the Statue of Liberty and will have live music. It should be fun. I am very grateful that my aunt invited me to visit.

Michael Jackson - Billie Jean