Quick, clean your room!

I recently updated my housing application for couples housing. My boyfriend updated his too. I don't know this for sure, but it kinda sounds like we missed an opening because our applications weren't up to date. My boyfriend is going to call about it today. No one notified us to say that our applications needed to be updated. It just so happens I called to see what was going on and at that time they said I had to update.

Today is a day off for me but I had to wake up early to clean my room. My housing counselor comes every other Thursday morning and often checks the whole house. I've been told in the past that my room was 'cluttered.' She kinda suggested that I get rid of some furniture. That is not happening. So every other Thursday morning I scramble to get my room tidy enough to pass inspection. I finished cleaning my room today so now I just have to wait around; she should be here in a little while.

I went to the NAMI meeting last night, and was told that the usual leader of the group was not well. Someone else from our group ran it, and I think it went pretty well. There was only the guy running the group and one other person besides me.

I have therapy today finally. I canceled on her recently and she canceled on me last week so it's been a while. My therapist has a chronic coughing issue. Every session, she has at least one coughing spell and gets water, iced tea, or a cough drop. She has a platter of cough drops on her table and often offers me one. I often wonder if she is addicted to cough drops.

After therapy, I am going to preview some of the winter coats in the stores. My mom is going to take me shopping tomorrow night for a new coat. Even though I am working part time right now, I cannot afford a new coat. I am very appreciative that my mom helps me out in such matters. Someday I hope to be able to afford those things.

Sleepy

Well, it's about time that I write another blog entry- I've been slacking. My psychologist, Dr. K, has been falling asleep during my sessions with him. I've observed his head falling down about three times now (different days). I don't know what to think of this...I know I have been pretty quiet in therapy lately. He doesn't actually fall asleep mid-sentence; it happens when I am not speaking. I know he is getting old, but still. I should either change my appointment time or stop going to him altogether. I still have not gotten my handicap bus pass, so I cannot really see Jeanne. My case manager brings me to see Jeanne once a month. All of the other weeks I have phone sessions. Because I don't have reliable transportation to Jeanne, I might change my appointment time with Dr. K and see how that goes.

I have very little motivation today. Most of the day I've spent sleeping or semi-sleeping. I am going to have to start cleaning my room soon, as I am going to be getting my grandmother's furniture in early November. I honestly do not know where I am going to put all my stuff. It is frustrating and my parents don't understand it is a struggle. My mother said to my sister that
my room being messy is a part of my illness and that it is sad, not funny. Jeanne does say I have a bit of OCD when it comes to my room, but I don't think my mom was referring to OCD.

I did get a major increase in foodstamps. I just finished eating some of the macaroni and cheese/chili/cornbread casserole that my sister and I made recently. It is so filling that everytime I eat it my stomach ends up hurting because I should not have taken seconds. It is just so good though. I would go for a walk if I had more motivation. I don't really feel depressed, like I am not sad and hopeless. I just don't feel like doing much today. I didn't have anything planned anyways.